Sofia

Dir en grey, Helsinki, Finland.

Mon, 05 Nov 2007 21:32:00 GMT

Over seas(Europe)tour07 DOZING GREEN.

The concert at Tavastia Klubi in Helsinki was amazing. Fantastic. It was so intense. 1,5 hrs intensive moshpitting. Bloody hell.

and i got a GUITAR PICK! DIE'S FUCKING GUITAR PICK!

It now sitts proudly around my neck in a leather string.

Dozing Green
tour07
Die

Dir en grey

New Layout

Thu, 27 Sep 2007 20:56:32 GMT

Finally I made myself a new layout.

First time playing in my Photoshop, which I got for xmas. I'm so creative. Cheer.
Kyo <3.

I wonder if I can be creative enough to write something too.

At school

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 08:07:52 GMT

Sigh

I'm at school, one hour too early, again. Too lazy to actually walk to school at fridays. Can't find you Therese.

ooo it was my birthday yesterday^^ Got a iPod, FFXII <3

Sun, 08 Oct 2006 21:27:04 GMT

I dare you to move

I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor

I dare you to move

Gay rights!

Thu, 05 Oct 2006 05:15:32 GMT

"Why is it that, as a culture, we are more comfortable seeing two men holding guns than holding hands?" - Ernest Gaines

We would like to know who really believes in gay rights on livejournal. There is no bribe of a miracle or anything like that. If you truly believe in gay rights, then repost this and title the post as "Gay Rights". If you don't believe in gay rights, then just ignore this. Thanks.

Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind. (stolen from after_moonrise)

It's happening. (stolen from griffinfire)

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 14:49:00 GMT

Allting har en ände,
men korven den har två,
pannkakan har ingen,
men den är glad ändå.

I - I tried to consume just like a super faggot
I got some dude
how can y'all bring a muthafucka something so good he couldn't
say no
you nailed me hard
I love 'em when they don't give a motherfucking shit
I could've been someone instead of falling flat upon my ass

Dig me now and fuck me later
and sing it to the tune of faggot faggot faggot
ow - dig me now and fuck me later
and sing it with the...

Fri, 08 Sep 2006 11:14:17 GMT

ooo im discovering new microsoft word functions! lol, this is so much fun. gonna write some cool one's down so i'll remember them. AWESOME! *lol, cough*

CTRL+F Fet
CTRL+K Kursiv
CTRL+U Understruken
CTRL+mellanslag tar bort alla teckenformat
CTRL+SHIFT+0 Nedsänkt text(index)
CTRL++(plus) Upphöjd text(exponent)

and i so gotta make a new favorite icon to use. or one more, cua the reita hair is pure loove

okay listening to my friends iPOD now, finding some dam ngood songs, gonna write them down so i can find them when i get home.

Mindless Self Indulgence - faggot
Neo - So sick of love songs
Nirvana - Smells like teen spirit
Relient K - Who I am hates who i've been

Tue, 05 Sep 2006 17:11:40 GMT

Normal day at school, math really fun, therese sneezed like 20 times. I swear, her sneeze is the funniest thing every. It's a kind of sneeze/cough she doesn and alway at least three times straight^^ damn we laughed. still, hope she'll get better(I so don't want a cold)

Got a lill headache now though, if i have it tomorrow I'll blame therese.

But now to the big thing of today.

I'm wearing the slipperiest SOCKS there've EVER been!

*giggles* I didn't notice untill I got home, took off my shoes and all that. and my floor aint that slippery welcoming at all, so hours went by and no slippery slipp.

THEN I went upstairs! hahaahha I was like Bambi on ice!

I've banged my knees a couple of times, my elbow, butt, hip not my head but my right shoulder on the edge of the sofa.

Damn, i got some nice bruses but HEY! I had so much fun! (the reason to like half of the bruses might be from me running through the hall, as to see how far i could go with my socks)

lol, i'm so in love with therse black/blueish socks.

Wed, 30 Aug 2006 21:32:29 GMT

I've now done all my homework, fixed my mp3 for the 40 minutes walk to school tomorrow, read all i could find and now im bored.

and one of my toes are hurting.

Where did the p0rn go? *looks right and left*

Mon, 21 Aug 2006 21:04:49 GMT

I hate these fucking emotinal moments.

I'm crying right now and I don't know why. My parents are teasing me about being grumpy all day, because since school ended I have been. I don't really know why. My mom thinks it's because I'm dissatisfied with the classes and stuff, but as far as I know it's not!

I really hate when they tease me like that, but they can't help that I'm so fucking emotional sometimes and they don't know how it affects me.

I hate this. I'm gonna write something and see what'll come out of it.

Just a Question of Love

Mon, 07 Aug 2006 00:28:05 GMT

I've just seen the movie Just a Question of Love and I have to say that it was beautiful. Cyrille Thouvenin is really beautiful himself, I was staring at him all the time.

The first gay movie I ever saw was "Get Real" which we saw at school, almost everybody in the class made sick noises and turned away when a gay scense came up, damn I can't understand them.
This guy Steven falls in love with the school's sport hero John(or was it Johnny?) They start dating, but not public, John is dead scared of anyone finding out. The movie is kinda sad but very good, I've been meaning to get it.
Theres this one scene in the end that really get's to you.
Steven saying, "Be happy, Johnny."

The second I saw was "Latter Days", I can't say I loved it, but it was nothing wrong with it. Yes, some scenes was beautiful, especially the end but I found it a little too silly for my liking. Though I'd gladly see it again.
It's about a very gay guy who starts liking a very christian boy. The family eventually finds out and hell breaks loose. It's very touching and I cried because beeing gay was viewed as a sin from his parent's way. Damn I hate that kinda shit. Makes me really upset.

the third one I say was "Formula 17" a chinese one. Very silly but funny loving thing. About this guy, Tien, who comes to Taipei thinking that sex is for when you love someone, but then he falls in love with the biggest playboy Bai. It's a little too much actually, mainly because everybody in this movie is gay, and no sight of any women at all. But in the long run, it's not bad at all.

My fourth one was "Eating Out". Okay that one was kinda funny^^ The straigh guy trying to get to the fag hag by dating her best male friend. While the straight guy's best male friend is totaly in love with the guy Marc (the straigh guy) is dating. Funny thing, made me laugh but also cry in the end. Though it turned out to be a happy ending:)

the fifth one was "Plata Quemada" or "Burnt Money" in english. Okay, this was more of a action movie. Quite confuseing actually. It's about two guys, Angel and Nene. They're called The Twins and they work together, meaing they do missions, killing people, stealing and such.
It's quite touching since Angel is quite mad, but at the same time not, from the voices in his head and Nene is desperately trying not to lose him. Still Nene sleeps with a woman. Very sad movie, and it's based on a true story.

Okay and now the most recent one, "Just a Questionof Love". Man, this was the best one I've ever seen. Laurent is hiding his sexuality from his parents, knowing that they'll throw him out if they knew, his cousin were throwed out when he told his parents.
He is in need of tuturing and falls in love with his "teacher" Cédric.
It's wonderfull to see there relatinship grow but at the same time sad to see how Laurent is hiding from his parents.
One thing though that really got me sad with this movie was the way it portraited the parents(Laurent's and Cédirc's) and Laurent's view of it all. Laurent wishing he was normal, don't wanting to be gay and all the parents saying, "I cried in the beginning, but I don't want to lose my son." Clearly stating that they can't stand two men together, they're disgusting with it. It really upseted me.

Damn this got long, but I felt I just had to write a little now, didn't mean to tell my gay movie experience^^
Well, I'm off to bed now, hopefully I'll be able to watch "Summersturm" (Summer Storm) tomorrow and it'll be my seventh move:)

Thu, 13 Jul 2006 22:24:25 GMT

Okay, another post, just after the last one but....

I feel so fucking alone.

My friends never call me, none of them, and I have like six, or well five. Jag har en person som typ förföljer mig. Written in swedish to prevent one special to read it.

I mean, okay so my friends don't care much. But what I don't get is me. How many times have a friend not called and I turned them down? Simply because I didn't feel like it. No I sat in my basememt readin, playing games, writing, watching movies whatever. How stupid can you be? How stupid can I be?
Maybe they finaly gave up on me? Moved on, found better funnier friends, thinking "she likes to be alone anyway."

So maybe it's true. You don't know what you had untill you lose it.

Or maybe I'm just rambeling because I'm not feeling too well.

After all, what do I know?

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 21:44:05 GMT

I've just seen the movie "A beautiful Mind" with Russel Crow.
I very much liked it, and I find schizophrenia itself very interesting, and the movie wwere very well done(4 Oscars, duh) so yeah. I have to buy it if I ever see it in a store.

Tomorrow night is the big day!
Can't wait! Daniël's arriving, I'm so nervous, but in a good way. =)

I'm having a little headache though, but I guess it all can't be perfect ;)

The Heart He Stole

Thu, 29 Jun 2006 14:37:30 GMT

Title: The Heart He Stole
Author: thearkle
Paring: Harry/Draco
Rating: PG-13
Genere: Romance, Fluff
Warning: None
Summary: Short sweet Drabble

The Heart He Stole

”…Draco?”

”Mmm?”

”Oh, sorry,” Harry softly apologized. ”You were sleeping?”

Rolling over onto his stomach Draco sleepily peered at his lover’s relaxed face.

“Almost, don’t worry about it.”

Pause.

“Oh, okay,” Harry whispered as he quickly closed his eyes again.

Rubbing the sleep from his eyes Draco sighed, wrapped his arms around the other teen’s waist and buried his head in Harry’s neck.

“What’s bothering you, Harry?”

Shivering slightly from the warm breath ghosting over his bare skin the raven haired boy just sighed, focused onto the contrast of tan and pale skin and promptly ignored the question.

Letting out a puff of air Draco wrapped himself more firmly around his lover. “Harry,” he breathed tiredly, just letting a little bit of a whine come trough. “You can’t just wake me like that and expect me to leave you alone.”

“So you were asleep?” Harry mumbled into the blond looks.

“Harry!” the blond boy whined, for real this time. “Don’t change the subject.”

Snickering softly, before being interrupted by a yawn, Harry pulled back a little to look into the irritated face of his heart.

“It was worth a try.”

“Barely.”

Grimacing slightly before yawning again Harry promptly gagged as Draco stuck a finger into his mouth. “Draco!” Harry screeched and he gasped for air.

Pout gone Draco started to laugh, “You should have seen you face!” He hollered as tears of mirth started to gather in the corners of his eyes.

Harry now being the one pouting glared down at his mad boyfriend. “I can’t believe that you still find that funny.”

Sobering up just a little Draco grinned up at him, “You’re funny.”

“Git,” Harry smiled fondly as he threaded his fingers through Draco’s blond hair, only to yelp a second later as Draco bit his nipple.
“That was mean, baby.”

Grinning against the tan skin Draco murmured something about not insulting him before soothing the bite with soft kisses.

“Draco…”

A pale hand found a tanner one and intertwined its fingers.

Draco smiled a little about Harry’s quite moan and took the nipple in his mouth, caressing it with his tongue. Harry closed his eyes, tightened his fingers around the pale ones and made a content sound.

Another light kiss to his chest and Draco put his head down on his boyfriend’s chest and promptly closed his eyes.

Opening his eyes Harry peered down on him, “You’re not just stopping are you?”

He only got a smirk in return.

Heaving a sign he wrapped one arm around Draco, the other one still in a safe grip in the other boy’s - man’s - hand.

Minutes passed, the only sound being the puffs of air that hit his chest, making him shiver.

Softly caressing the pale skin at Draco’s lower back, Harry looked at the ceiling.

“You awake?” He whispered.

No response.

Looking down at the relaxed face resting on him, Harry smiled.

“I love you.”

He then closed his eyes, and a few moments later he fell asleep to the steady breathing of his lover.

In the comfortable darkness, a Slytherin smiled, before falling asleep to the steady beating of the heart he stole.

~end~

Sat, 24 Jun 2006 00:21:44 GMT

Fuck, Therese you've just got offline and I'm so sad right now. I was crying just before you said "G'night" and I didn't say what I was going to.

I just want you to know that I love you, I haven't had many friends but as I see it, you're a true one. Please please don't hate me for what's happening now. It feels like you're leaving me, and taking the rest of "the gang" with you, and well I can't do much to stop it. I'm just hurt.

I'm not a very outgoing person, you know this but I still need people who likes me. The boring one, who you really can do without. So even if you don't need me, I need you.

And I just...

My throat is hurting, too much emotions.

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 15:00:59 GMT

It's been a pretty boring day now, just going home from my mom's work.

we're just gonna leave a link to a good fan fic I've been reading today actually.
http://www.fictionalley.org/authors/kishijoten/SC21.html

another one, stonewall high
http://www.fanfiction.net/s/2170053/1/

Tue, 20 Jun 2006 09:27:41 GMT

Hmm well I'm currently at my mom's job, so I have no access to WoW, PSP or my fan fiction files -_-

Meh.

I miss them.

Thinking of starting on a new fan fiction, only to have to write on when I'm here that is. One-shot, long one, I don't have any of those.

Yeh, I'll do that. If I'm able to gather any ideas *looks around for a muse*

I love my mp3.

Yay, away from here now, going home to watch a movie with a friend. But have to bike home -_-'

Sun, 18 Jun 2006 00:54:11 GMT

No long entry this time.
Hard day, lots of talk with the parents about this summer and stuff. All including talk, screaming, crying and so on. Man, I think I sat in the garden a couple of hours to gather myself again.
But my mom loves me, and she was deeply sorry for some things she screamed, she was very clear with that. And well, it all looks so much brighter now.

Hmm I won't be introducing Daniël(my friend who I mentioned) to a tree, he just read my entries. Bummer. ^______^

We like staring. *stares*
Smiles are contagious, it's a fact.

Wed, 14 Jun 2006 20:30:30 GMT

Wohoo!

Okay, no more depressing thoughs. Impossible now! School will end in two days! Two days! Then I've finished 9th grade and gonna start on a whole new school and it's exciting! ^^

I've bought the world's coolest shorts, which aint a very big part of my happiness but ya know.

No this huge reason to why I'm so up in the clouds it because a friend is gonna visit me. In like, 3 weeks! I've never met him before, so that's why I'm so nervous about it, we've only talked on the net and phone so it's big! :D Can't be more happy/nervous!

Lol, and he's gonna meet my friends! Hahaha wonder how he's gonna react^^ They're nuts^^ but love them. They've also talked to him thoughthe net so he know a little about them. One of them, Clalyan, told him "Well, since you haven't seen me, how do you know that I'm not a tree?"

haha we're thinking of me introducing him to a tree, haven't decided yet, but it would be so funny^___^

And about the song, Gay pimp - Lookin' cute, haha it was some video I found on youtube which rocked!

Wed, 31 May 2006 16:52:59 GMT

Am I supposed to feel like this? Really, am I?
I think I might be depressed, I don't think I have a serious enough reason to be, but on some level I think I am.

I can't put my finger on exactly what though, point out some tiny reasons and create a big ball yes, but I can't really do that either. It's just emotions after all. I think.

Nobody notice, or at least I don't think they do. Cuz this is just the way I am, the quiet one, the broody one, the non-fun one and it goes on. And the thing is, I've always been like that, from my perspective at least, and I don't know if it's good for me.

I can't change the way I am, but am I making myself depressed by being me?

Thu, 11 May 2006 21:29:38 GMT

Okay normal say in school, except no math so me, Monika and Therese went to the city and bough some ice cream. (Therese did not make out with her bisexual non-boyfriend)*snigger*
We did find a very cool CD store, one that I've never seen before, I think it's new or someting.

So anyway after school I talked to a hairdresser, we decided to do my hair at 4 o'clock tomorrow, but I'll cansel it(mom can do just as good, and if not, psh, doesn't matter)

But now to the point!

Me and Monika went down to the city later and we had a blast! (too bad Therese wasn't there) Monika panicked all the time because there were good looking cool guys everywhere. Not that we stalked any of them... Really we didn't...Much...*cough*

Oh, and there were some accident at one of the malls, some old man had sliped and fallen onto the floor or something, because when we arrived the ambulance were there and he was bleeding from his head.
Didn't look too serious though, he was talking and all.

I bough a KoRn CD aaand...Moi dix mois!!!! I can't believe I found Mana here! Unbeliveable! Too bad that they didn't have any more Visual Kei.

And now too the bad things of the day.

We med this group of assholes, also known as guys from my school. And guess what they did! They fucking threw and egg at me!!! A EGG!!! @½!^-%#!!!!

Luckily for them it bounced of my shoulder, sure it hurt rather badly, but it didn't break untill it confronted the wall to our right. Fucking idiots.

Well okay moving on, when I got home I read for a bit before my mom called me. I'm not allowed to go to the Hultsfredsfestivalen. Damn it, I'd really liked to see/hear KoRn. But but she won't let me. Not untill I'm 18.
I took it okay, nothing strange, I understand that they're conserned.

No, the weirdness came later. I went up a few minutes later and asked for help with the make up and stuff, and they started to tease me a little, and I just started to cry!
Not in front of them, mind you, but I quickly went back to my room and started to cry! And I have no idea of why! I even started to laugh at myself!

The tears dried, and mom helped me with the make up, it became really good looking actually, I might start wearing it all the time. We'll see.

I'm gonna wear red trousers tomorrow, my mom's complaning cuz I wear too much black.

Wed, 10 May 2006 22:18:58 GMT

I write this things way too late. Pfft.

Now let's see...what happened today?

Oh right, first thing in the morning we danced at the P.E, it was really fun, me and Therese rocked. I cannot dance ballet, neither can Hampus.

The SO test wen't well, it was quite easy, at least much more easy than I'd expected. Pretty normal say, all in all.

We wen't donw to the "town" and bough some candy, Therese paniced cuz she tohugh that we'd be late for the english lesson. We weren't. The movie we watched weren't that good, but not that bad either.

Wen't home after school, it's really hot, got this fan fic idea of Harry beening all hot an bothered by Draco, I've written about 5 sentences. Go me.

I've been walking around in my shoes with the heels today, I think I'll be able to walk on friday, but I'll be prectising tomorrow too.

Gonna go to some hairdresser after school tomorrow too, she'll look at my hair, ask what kinda look I want and then she'll fix it tomorrow before the ball. Everything's good.

No more homework this week, but my parents weren't that posetive to the "Gates of Metal" consert in aug. But I hope that i'll be able to convince them that I should go.

Tue, 09 May 2006 20:46:03 GMT

No SO test, teacher gone, ugh doing it tomorrow.

Brother made it, he got accepted to the music class. yay, gonna tell the teacher this thursday.

Bought shoes for the ball, they're high, can barely walk. Hate heels, love my sneakers.

My room's messy.

Am tired.

Gonna sleep.

Mon, 08 May 2006 21:44:21 GMT

Hmm... It've been a very hot day today. Like really really hot! Notes to self: try not the wear black clothes during really really hot days.

Ugh I have a headache, been having one since I came home and started on the homeworks. Monika, Therese and I stayed an hour after school to finish the SO project, the sun was killing me and Monika in our black clothes, Therese were the only one smart enough to dress in not so black clothes:P She doesn't have a shirt with the word "SMART" printed onto it for nothing, ya know.

Hmm well anyway, I got lucky, I didn't have to walk home with my heavy bag, which was full of homeworks and my jacket, instead my mom picked me up! Yes, I was really lucky, she'd just picked up my brother and one of his friends(one that I've never met before, wonder what his name was?)

We bought some ice cream on our way home^__^

So I had a small moment of bliss before I threw myself into the world of torture AKA doing homeworks.
Got the SO done, god did it feel great when you pushed "print", the it was only the swedish left, I just wrote something down and I'm surpired that it turned out to be something. I mean, Therese tohugh it was good and so did Monika and Hampus, I should at least get a G (good) on it.

The headache got unbearable after that so I biked with Oscar and dad for an hour and it passed. Only to come back when I started to read all the boring facts about the second world war. Ugh.
The test tomorrow will be hard as hell, I'm just hoping that I'll pass.

Going to bed now, head's killing me. Forgot the asprin. Damn it. Don't wanna wake up the house.

Sun, 07 May 2006 20:52:17 GMT

It's been a very lazy day for me today. Well, not that lazy actually but relaxing.
Woke up at 10 sometimes and watched buffy on tv, realized that I needed some Spike fan fiction and started reading Spike/Angel which got me to look into the Angel series, and I can't help but wanting to watch them.

The tennis wen't okay, I think I did pretty good, though I have to work on my condition, it's at it's bottom. But I hit the ball at least.

Helped my dad to pain a fence of sort too, green, I'm very surprised that I didn't got any om my white pants. Guess I'm lucky.

I gotta stop eating so much ice cream.

Oh and Monika want's me and Therese to go to some consert called someting and then "Metal" in aug, I'm not that sure that I'll be alowed to go though, with the reputation and all but they're allowing me to go the Dir en grey consert in Berlin so I think I should be allowed to go. But still not sure.

Damn it, I should've done my homework. Now I have to do it all tomorrow.